I feel like I’m running around in circles. I’m probably just panicking for no good reason, as I always do, but it’s weird to care and not care at the same time. Just like how I feel 半桶水 about most things nowadays; can’t decide which way to go or another.
I feel a bit guilty sometimes, that I’m never 100% anything. But I get the feeling I don’t know how to. Some part of me’s somewhere far away, dreaming of a time where I can get away from here.
You don’t know about the little things that we do without, when that whole mad season comes around.
The best kind of judge —
— is the insulting kind of judge.
Thoughts that appear at 5am in the morning;
omg munchkins. i -love- munchkins. there’s munchkin fu, which is like the asianized version. totally hilarious~
oh that was me btw. i realise n might be lots of people!
nah, i knew it was you :)
I hate the way I still prac-crit everything you say even though my English is better.
I know I keep asking, so you and me, babe, how about it under a convenient streetlight. I wish I could serenade you, step out of the shade. And you’ll reply from the top window, just like in the song. Everything’s happened; it can’t un-happen itself. You and I — maybe we’re only brief encounters, nothing else.
looking pretty babe!
x
Whoever said that law didn’t involve mathematics is a liar.
I want to faint and die. What the hell is this? Comparative Corporate Governance, pfft, go die in a fire somewhere!
OMG I DID THIS LAST SEMESTER.
bad memories.
why did you have to do this?!?!
i’m suddenly glad i’m not doing law. i told the law interviewer that my math sucked and he assured me math was hardly necessary. bluff!
technically, he wasn’t wrong… i didn’t bother trying to decipher that, though. numbers are for accountants and economists and engineers !
cos i took the same module hahaha.. comparative corp governance.
though i skipped all the math and jumped to the conclusion which didn’t involve any numbers or symbols.
those O with the curly thing on top and sub-scripted alphabets are so STRANGE.
eek how gross. yeah i just treated that entire page as non-existent hahahahah :) eh you take ACCA why still say numbers and symbols strange!!
(Don’t walk away, then turn and say “I love you,” anyway, / you come for the week to love me, and then you up and leave next day.)
I have been probably pushing myself too hard. There are things that I don’t need to do, but I have been doing them anyway. This includes stupid things like reading articles and cross-referencing them, putting in citations in my own paper that cite this article which cited that article on this page under this footnote, and drawing an insane number of mindmaps for that last International Company Law exam just so I would remember everything, which I didn’t, in the end. The last three weeks have been crazy and mad, and I’d like to say I’ve barely had time to think, but the truth is I’ve been thinking a lot (and maybe too much), and I don’t like what I come up with. Everything I write does not make sense, now that I read it again, and even though I passed my exam, I am still somewhat unhappy with the results. I want to do well, even if I don’t have to, and this bugs me. Am I asking for too much?
The semester is almost over. As usual one is struck by how fast time flies, and the way in which it has flown. People have already gone home, to wherever they came from, and one recalls the tears that I find myself unable to shed. Maybe it was because I was not the one leaving; maybe I did not have sufficient connections with these people. There were lovely people, people I wish I’d known better were I not caught up in my own drama, but three months and meaningful friendships are hard to sustain. One is aware that this is not an excuse and that I could have, if I tried, or bothered to try. That being said, maybe next semester will be different, and one can always hope for the best. Making new friends, sustaining them, remembering why I am here in the first place, living for myself. The world is now and forever waiting for me to explore it. For once I will try not to be defeated by my own inaction.
As usual, I have not done anything (much) today. I have an exam on Monday but I’ve barely started studying. This would be better if it were actually graded so I could feel more fear, or written so that I could feel less. As it is, it’s an oral exam. I’m scared shitless and yet not, and my brain is continually pushing waves of apathy towards me.
absinthe is awesome
only for the first five minutes
… we’ve got so much to do, but only so many hours in a day. And we can dream on, but don’t imagine they’ll all come true.
I have decided to update this post everyday for a week with the things that make me happy everyday. It is time for some POSITIVITY! Also, strange how they say people only blog when they are either 1) very depressed 2) very free 3) very busy. I suppose this must be true, because I do it all the time.
I told someone before that there was no way I was going down the same road again, but it seems that I am, anyway. I’m not making excuses, and who knows how long this will take, and it saddens me a little that I was arrogant enough to think I could overcome it. Because I have, before, and why not this time, right? It’s true; I’m a proud person, and perhaps insanely so. I’ve been brought up to believe that I can do anything, and by extension, if I must do something, it should be something I can do alone. It is perhaps part of being alone all your life; you learn to do things by yourself, or you remain at the bottom of the well.
Because there is no point in continually dwelling on things I know I cannot change, I am going to try and make myself happy as I possibly can. And yes–there is no point dragging my cumulative luggage with me, though that takes a while to sink in and I probably have to keep telling myself that a million and one times, possibly to no avail. It is hard not to lapse back into the past when I honestly cannot remember the last time I was alone. But on the other hand I am only blind if I do not want to see. I have been talking to K a lot recently, and I am glad he is here; few people are as honest with me as he is, and after all these years, it’s funny how we can pick up where we left off.
So, the things that made me happy today:
your mother sounds like an amazing person. i was inspired just reading that (:
she is :)
haha you know what? today i was also thinking of tattoos. because of mok (:
(i just realised mok has a tag of his own haha.)
haha yeah it was because of mok :) finally galvanised me into making the decision, even though i was thinking about it for very long already…
now i just need to decide whether i want to get it in holland or amsterdam/london or wait till i get home and then decide again. but i am damn gian to have it done asap :/
yah from the last time we celebrated his birthday. this michelle also i think! why! you want one is it!!! :)
These few days have been better, but it might have been all the alcohol.
Everyone is going home soon, and it’s hard to fathom that one semester has already passed us by. In these three months so many things, good and bad, have happened, sometimes changing our lives irreversibly. Whatever it is, whether it’s the people we’ve met or the people who have left or are leaving, this exchange year is shaping up to be an unforgettable one.
looking lovely my dear!
♥ ♥
YES THE SEMESTER WENT BY DAMN MFCKIN FAST.
as per all other sems.
it’s like that one la. even exchange… is not even a year!
i know! i leave egypt in like, 3 weeks! ahhhh! will send you some je stuff, because well, i cant actually be there and watch stupid things with you in person. want anything in particular? omf i realise in every je group there will be at least one person i get totally mad for. (okada! OMG!) except hsj, which is like… paedophilia. i hate leaving and all these goodbyes and shit. its so. terminal. anyway, dear, you do look really good, very kind of shiny. is this what alcohol does to you? haha. take good care of yourself! -hug-
you can actually get je stuff in egypt?!! or are you going home to singapore before you come back to edinburgh? no i don’t want anything in particular… i just pre-ordered the QOP concert dvd which will arrive after the new year! YAY! and surprisingly, the one in V6 i like the most is nagano – i just think he’s cute, don’t ask. -_- and i’ve realised that takaki is actually not that young, so it’s not that bad to think he’s cute.
i know what you mean. i hate goodbyes too, which is why i don’t send people off unless i’m sure i’ll see them again. and yet, there’s still something terminal about them, like something will still have changed imperceptibly despite everything.
i don’t know if it’s the alcohol! haha but thank you ♥ take care of yourself too!
no lah crazy no je stuff in egypt. although! there is a sortof anime channel which has all these not-bad animes fully dubbed in arabic! and proper, formal, arabic! not slang! even the songs are dubbed! which is HILARIOUS. i consider watching them as homework. =)))
omf you’re going to have the QOP concert dvd?!I AM TOTALLY COMING TO VISIT! or bring it when you come visit me!(you are coming, right?) there are direct flights from schipol to edinburgh! and if you bring it when you come visit me i will cook LOTS OF THINGS TO EAT while we watch pretty boys! promise! =)
takaki (yuya, right?) is the same age as my sister. therefore. NOOOOOO. its like how i thought someone was pretty fab, realised he was my YOUNGEST sisters age, and nearly fainted. nagano is totally cute, i agree. he has such a nice scrunchy smile. but okada is like. hotness. like seriously. have you watched any gakkou e ikou? i cant find any subbed ones.
ive been watching arashi shows. dont kill me, theyre actually really good. -shock- have you watched any arashi no shukudai kun? its taking up like…. 50G in my harddrive… im watching my boss my hero with nagase. its pretty funny. i was a bit surprised that sorafune was the theme, though!
in some ways, i dont mind not seeing some people again, because when you both change and then meet again its hard to talk then, and for that not to ruin what you had, if that makes sense. everything is damn terminal these days. sometimes i think thats why we’re so addicted to stupid things like shows and je boys, because we arent doing the things we know we could have done.
haha no laaa i think you just look nice. your hair, esp! very pretty! =) be well, love.
haha yah i was wondering about that… like how is it possible!!
yes it’s going to arrive after the new year – about mid january? haha yes i might come up to edinburgh if i’m free… i have kaizokuban, real face, and ctkt as well (: i only brought the ctkt dvd over though, because i couldn’t carry all of them :/ ahahhaaha.
takaki omg. in my mind your sister is still this cute little thing. i cannot believe we have known each other for 10 years. where does all the time go?! nagano doesn’t actually do anything, though!? okada is cute but he is kind of aloof and weird. i dunno. he doesn’t smile enough!!!
i haven’t watched any arashi shows except for the ones where toda erika appears in them for ryusei no kizuna promotions – i’m waiting for the whole drama to be over before i watch that too. i heard my boss my hero was good, yeah – sorafune (: and kame has a new drama, did you hear?!?! EXCITED LIKE SHIT.
i know what you mean about that too. it’s just awkward after awhile. i guess that’s why you know that someone’s really meant to be your friend when you’re separated for really long, but when you get back everything is still the same, or not that much has changed that you can’t talk and laugh about it. i think about all the things i could have done, too, and that depresses me alot. so whatever. to hell with that.
YAY (: i just cut my fringe the day after myself though. it turned out less of a disaster than i expected. heh.
All this cycling home half-drunk is bound to take a toll on us one day.
For the less experienced among us, I have already crashed into a wall and fallen off trying to mount a kerb with my bike while trying to bike home while high just now.
Apparently this is quite a common occurrence. That I only ended up with a bleeding shin is a blessing in itself.
Woman dies after falling from bike
She was not wearing helmet when she was flung going down a winding slope
http://www.straitstimes.com/Singapore/Story/STIStory_276978.html
wah lao des you quite nice, show me this kind of bad news!!
concerned for your safety! think its best to walk and not cycle :)or wear a helmet!
was it me or my imagination that you had one long post written in chinese after this one which doesn’t exist anymore?
dont drink and drive, woman!!!
omg there was this bike accident in edinburgh early one morning where this guy got crushed under a truck. everyone saw it because it was like just before the exams for the day started. horrific.
get a taxi!!!
Before we all know it, I’ve been here for more than a week. Over these few days there have been so many happenings, so many parties, so many exciting things to tell. From the first week of meeting new people and crazy random parties with lots and lots (and lots) of drinking, to cooking totally random food in the kitchen, we’ve also changed our housemate. He used to be an American who smoked weed all day and stayed on the top floor, but he moved out because of the rent and now we have a new Iranian housemate whose wife is coming to stay with him starting sometime this week. He is also Muslim, so we are having to deal with all this at one go.
ahhh! it looks amazing! im definitely coming to visit you next term. =)
come, come! yay!
are you in cairo yet?
zomg! i want to visit toooooo sulk. mm beer! :D
nope leaving on saturday. come visit me in cairo! haha. zhen’s coming early dec with parents, i think. eh are you coming back for xmas? no right? omg seriously ian’s xmas party is like not going to be fun anymore. =((((
Americans are noisy, Spanish girls are hot, Japanese guys are super hot, the Germans think Erdinger is good shit, the Chinese are fucking everywhere, and omg. OH MY GOD.
HOLLAND FUCKING SMELLS OF WEED.
(OK. That was my update. Other than that orientation’s been fun. But there is so much alcohol, and especially when it costs 1-2 euros a pint, everybody drinks like crazy. At orientation functions beer is FREE, and it’s pretty good beer, the pubs are everywhere, people are happy, and omg the weed. Today there was an impromptu party at the hostels near the university, so everyone went down to the lawn and brought down couches and like 5 cases of beer and a couple of bottles of wine. So many people turned up, from everywhere, and it was so good talking to everyone. The weather was great and it wasn’t cold at all, we were warm from the alcohol and talking so much nonsense, and Sharm has just stumbled off to bed. On the bad side it cost us $20 (11 euros) for a cab ride. Yesterday there was a welcome drink in the city centre and everyone was just. Drinking. And drinking. And drinking again. Tomorrow there is another party. Everyone is crazy and high and it is kind of funny listening to them talk. My liver is fucking going to die.)
take pictures of cute boys pls. haha. glad you’re having fun, dear. -hugggg-
omg you sound damn high. O_O
Remember what you have is right in front of you, is the thing they always tell you when they want you to be content with everything you’ve got, even the things you don’t have. Everybody is after all only given so much, and we make the best use of it as we can. Over the past week things haven’t been turbulent as much as they have been eerily quiet; brief spurts of aborted activity in the day slowly give way to the plodding routine of the night. This week things have been different and yet the same.
I thought about it and I thought it would be better if I left it like that. Hours later I’m still wondering why I didn’t pick up the phone. Strange? Maybe yes, maybe no. I keep having to pretend I’m not there or that I forgot about it, or that I completely missed it. It’s selfish to start thinking about how I shouldn’t have to be dealing with this right now.
Endless phone calls? How old are you, six?
I don’t even understand why there is all this bitterness on my part. This doesn’t even have anything to do with me.
I, we. There’s no doubt about it.
be well, dear. and all the best for exams!
thanks babe
exams are over!!!
JOY!
p/s: kurosagi is opening in singapore in june. :D
arghh! last paper tmr. political theory. grrrr.
yayyy okay consider yourself choped for watching kurosagi, ok. do not jack me. i will be very sad. -hugg-
i will wait for you.
political theory sounds daunting!
Isn’t it strange how music tastes change all the time? Some songs are still my favourite songs, even though I haven’t played them in ages, and others that I love don’t get as much playtime. Some songs just can’t be looped, if you know what I mean. There’s only so many times you can play a song that’s 11 minutes long, and yet that’s got to be my favourite one. Yet, everything seems to be me, and everything you play– you don’t know it, but it tells me who you are, too.
A few years ago I would not be caught dead with Asian music on my playlist. Yet I’ve been watching Music Station since I was 12, and I listened to Jacky Cheung in the car, before anything else. I’ve watched more Channel 8 and TVB serials than I can count, and yet I’ve never watched Sex and The City, or Gossip Girl, or Heroes.
I would say I’m not an English language person, but we all know how that would mean I’m lying. To me they’re just different. My favourite songs in English have beautiful lyrics, things that have meaning, that need you to uncover them like some treasure. There is often a guitar somewhere, and a haunting voice. It speaks to your mind or awakens some memory. My favourite songs in Chinese are all raw, who have simple lyrics that could mean so much more, who tug at your heart strings in a uniquely Chinese way. Like thinking of searching for your face along the street you’ve walked 9 times to no avail, or having your first love buy tickets to a concert you can only think about years later when you’re married and your husband sleeps silently next to you. When I think of English songs I imagine walls must be torn down; Chinese songs speak to you, through those walls. It’s okay if they’re up, so long as you understand them. And they hear you right back.
how about it, now.
my top 25 playlist is really totally random.
mine has 15 songs from the national, none from dire straits and k’s choice nor josh rouse because my itunes resetted itself.
and catpower tops the list rofl.
oh. yeah that happened when i changed my ipod… before that forever love by x japan topped the chart at 400+ times and next came take it easy. my parties used to be played 300+ times.
orange range is amazing. i dont know. i listen to a lot of things not in english, i have random french rap on my zen. it sounds better when i dont understand what theyre saying, really. and love songs sound the same in EVERY single language. seriously.
much love,
haha i love orange range as well; the opening they did for code geass is quite impossibly catchy.
yes. orange range ftw! :)
i think it always sounds better when i know what they’re saying. love songs – the image i have of the person singing is very different according to which language it’s in. it’s almost like an MTV starts playing in my head.
rofl that’s like the brilliant green for me.
When you are totally bored and don’t want to do any work, weird conversations with your friend call out to you.
This is how we spend our time talking about totally irrelevant things.
Because I am totally bored, its 6am and I can’t sleep, I’m still studying public law, and there are better things to look at.
#
Don’t you think it’s amazing how people can change from this…
… to this?
really, do i look like i NEED more reasons to be obsessed?????
omg the first 2 pics of jin! SO CUTE AND SMILY! what happened?!
he got sexy…
actually no la, he still smiles like that now. so cute right
omg i’m obsessed
GOKUSEN 3 IS SHOWING. omg so fast
haha yeah tell me about it. i clicked on your blog page and went “oooooooooooh” for about like, 10 minutes. ya omg the smile is killer! are you actually watching gokusen 3? not sure if im going to bother.
okay im going to reply the longer comment here because its a pain to scroll down so much.
yah seriously. if i ever learn japanese that’ll be the last you see of me. it wasnt even a rock tt ueda used, it was like, a traffic cone or smth. i find ueda actually freaky. like he is SO WEIRD. though the whole him and kame getting into a fistfight during a concert and then coming onstage and singing some best friends song is actually quite funny. but ya! hes sooo strange. yeah they said nakamaru looked like a mascot on some interview show! and theyre always making fun of his age. so poor thing.
hahah im never in school because i hate the library. its old, ugly and depressing. i just borrow books and bring them home. evidently youve been watching the old 13 video! hee hee hee.
there’s actually a crows zero shirt: http://directstyle.world.co.jp/webshop/item/W000112627053.html
yeah okay! so wait, does tt mean you’ve already watched kurosagi the movie? if not, then we watch together if its still showing when i get back, ok? omg i will need someone who understands the fangirl-ness. hahahaha. all the best for exams! get some sleep occasionally, ok.
haha thats like on cartoon kat-tun with horikita maki where one of kame’s first comments is “hey, this is the first time i’ve seen you with make up on” or smth like that. yes omg she looked SO BAD. but im really glad they kept it quite realistic la. if it was some wacky love triangle it would have been so weird. haha i love the episode of cartoon kat tun with her, not the least because kame is cooking on it…
hahahaha you’re going to jp with him right? omg he’s got to be prepared!
love,
no i’m not – anyway no one is subbing it now (it just aired on saturday) so i’m not going to bother. they’re promoting some new johnny’s junior now and the rating was 26.4% which is CRAZY.
yah i remember he just took the traffic cone and put it there and said “pretend this is a rock” and everyone is just like WTF?? ueda … is the only one of the members i’m apathetic about. but i suppose he can be quite funny if he wants to too.. hahaha. anyway years later when they debuted they talked about that fight and kame said he actually wanted to quit after that.
i hate the library too but i have to go to school or i just won’t study. staying at home is so distracting with th bed whereas here you kind of feel like you have to study because everyone around you seems to be working hard. erp.
when do you get back? i’m away from the 12th to the 27th but i dunno if its still (or ever) showing in singapore. i’ll watch it with you sure!!!
i just rewatched the maki episode and it was so funny. partly because everyone was trying to make themselves appealing to her and junno and jin just kept saying irrelevant things. ahhhh.
yup i am but it’s all good. ahaha :)
quite frankly, i dont understand the rating system at all!
i dont know. i dont really like koki either, to be honest. but at least he seems quite… nice..? ueda’s just a bit of a freak. goodness. though i dont understand why -kame- wanted to quit, since it was ueda who was getting flak, right?
eek i get all freaked out in the library then i cant focus. too many stress cases. i just go to my living room. anyway, i tend to be alone in my flat alot so as long as i stay away from my com its okay la.
im back on 15th may. yayyy! okay excellent. well, lets just meet and do something where we can gush to the fullest extent. haha.
i know! omg theyre all sooo funny whenever a girl appears. its like !!!!, ATTACK!!!
have you seen this, btw? http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x361vx_ann-cut-220207-mtsujun-shun
much love!
oh. ratings are just basically the percentage of people in the region that actually watch your show. so a rating of 26.4% means roughly 1 in 4 households is watching gokusen 3 at that particular time. that’s really quite amazing considering how many people there are.
i used to think koki was weird but i guess he’s okay now. he postures alot and tries to act gangsta (haha) and stuff but he’s actually pretty smart (he writes all the rap and goes to university etc etc) and he gives off a teddy bear vibe. hahahah. kame wanted to quit cos nakamaru made a mistake and ueda was the nearest one, but he didn’t cover for him. after that the other members told him about it and he apologized but kame was out of the room and didn’t hear anything about it, so when kame got back he got pissed and went to confront ueda and basically screamed at him. ueda – naturally – got pissed too – and they started punching each other. so kame was all like OMG i can’t do this etc etc
they talk about this fight alot even now. it’s quite funny (:
i shall look at the clip when it’s not 7am in the morning. hur hur
you guys are damn scary.
you haven’t seen japanese fangirls who take knives to concerts yet ;p
haha what japanese girls that take knives to concerts? for what? to get blood off the idols? eeeeek!
oh! okay NOW i get it about the ratings. i was like, why is it in percentages… shldnt it just be like, #1, #2, etc etc… omg that is crazy for gokusen 3. there’s a fangirl in every other household, apparently.
yeah i was reading something abt how he actually wanted to quite kat-tun for uni but johnny was like “NO!”. quite sad ah, how all their lives are run by some uber rich guy who basically owns them. haha gangsta teddy! i MUCH prefer him without hair. him with hair just looks odd. i know! it must have been seriously emotionally traumatic or smth. they keep bringing it up!
its basically oguri shun’s radio show with matsujun where they call inoue mao at like 1am in the morning. its quite funny la.
and pak, just think about it. we could be worse!
no, it’s to stab other girls who like a member they don’t… it’s quite fucked up really.
ARE YOU SERIOUS? WHAT?? where? did it actually happen? omg okay risse, im glad we’re so sane in comparison!!!
… they’re not even that hot.
OK I THINK I JUST SET MYSELF UP TO BE GANGKILLED.
yah you probably did
cos you haven’t seen them dance yet omg
i am so weak.
ps after their latest single leaked yesterday the pre-order for their latest album sold out within 4 hours … and i caved in and bought it ahahhahahahaaa
omg talk about retail therapy. its not even coming out till june
you have bad taste, pak. seriously. go and watch: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6rlFfk1bbc and whatever else comes up when you youtube kat-tun. they are like, HOW HOT. okay at least akame… but that is more than enough…
omg yes, risse. haha. what!!! ahahahahahahahaha. i am very very amused. thats a brilliant marketing strategy though. omg now they can have another pre-order and it would definitely sell too! ahhhhhh!
oh. yah. thats how they sell 400,000 in the first week because EVERYONE’S preordered it omgggg
but i heard the new song and i really really hope the PV is good.
much as i liked kame with eyeliner i prefer them dancing so every live lips performance didn’t really do it for me:
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1090395bheEEXsw?searchId=601823141841548915&rank=15
this is an example of how hot they can be
omg every time i watch it i die a little inside.
hahahaha
what’s the new song called?
hahahahah! see. the only problem with that song is that there is NO KAME. [and that its called PINKY] though yes. i understand. hahahaha. jin’s smile = killer.
Don’t U Ever Stop.
yah, complete with the misspelt ‘u’
here’s the link: http://www.box.net/shared/dln0d39cww
they played it on radio last friday and it made it onto the internet that same night hahaha i love crazy fangirls!
yah when i first saw the title i was like WTF? JIN? but that was before he went to LA so i have high hopes his english has drastically improved by now. the lyrics to pinky are super suggestive but zzzz it’s not like anyone can stop watching it though i agree it’d probably be 100000x hotter if it were kame dancing with him instead.
but it is not that i am really complaining
haha. as always. japlish is pwnage. mmm. i like the song!
ohhh what would the world do without crazy fangirls? life would be so boring! hahaha. seriously, okay. with all the energy tt goes into fangirling i think we could solve world poverty.
haha obviously the rabid fangirls would watch it because its super suggestive… though the way kame dances is occasionally a bit the slutty, dont you think? not that im complaining… i find it amusing tt on youtube theres like a dance he does tts labelled 18+. ahahaha. and theres this MASSIVE amount of screaming involved!!! omg its so funny!
what video is that! yes i like the song too. i like how all their singles are so different from each other but somehow they can still pull it off. probably an image thing… compared to the other JE groups they are really different. like they don’t give off the squeaky clean scandal free image but something just draws you to them… hahaha
but i like kanjani8 though – they are really funny. like comedic funny. they do stand up comedy shows during their concerts and stuff. a few of them actually contemplated being comedians before they got whisked off to johnny’s instead. it is really amazing.
i was just talking to my junior last night and we figured there is really no way kame can ever be straight. i mean, he is, i’m sure … but somehow imagining him with a guy is much easier than being with a girl?! maybe it’s because he looks kind of feminine (even now) and is totally … omg. haha is it just me!?
i realise its also known as this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQ__GDNVOcE&feature=related which has an AWFUL title. hahaha.
i think it might be because they are actually quite hot. i mean like, look at arashi. you cant really go crazy over their looks or anything, though they are talented. kat-tun has the benefit of being hot and insane.
ooh i havent watched kanjani 8! seriously i didnt realise tt johnnys took boys at such a young age. like 10 or 12, its like omg, their lives are seriously owned by the company la.
hahahahaha nooo i think the problem is thinking of kame with just one girl. i cant imagine him with just one girl. i can imagine him with lots. i mean like, hes what, 21? and obviously thinks hes quite pretty. i think he seems a lot more enthusiastic about the guys he works with, perhaps. hahahaha. i want to know what the “…” after the “totally” is! yeah a bit la. lots of them look slightly feminine. i think its the ridiculous skinniness.
omg i just watched that in full view of the study room. hahaha and yes…
alot of people think arashi is hot though! for me they look okay — they just have this homey look. like the boy next door kind of look. sakurai sho is really smart though!! i guess it’s partly because kat-tun took so many years to debut that they really had so much time to perfect their image. there was one episode of shounen club they did just before they debuted and they watched old videos of themselves and they were like “man, i’m so glad we didn’t debut in that state” cos they all looked weird and awkward and young.
yeah it’s probably the ridiculous skinniness. which is why i’m happy that yamapi actually has a sizeable chest (for his size anyway) and a 6 pack and doesnt really look anorexic. but other than that… well some of them are really good looking. like nishikido ryo! (kanjani8/news)
you must admit the whole business strategy is very good. and it works out for both parties since johnny gets backdancers for all his debuted groups and the young boys get to train up and become stars. ahhh. he is really a genius (even though he does look like a bit of a pedo)
kame had a 40 year old girlfriend! from then on, it has never been the same. he did say he liked mature women and i think that’s very true for his character and so i cant imagine him with like some cute japanese thing. or anyone his age. its just a bit weird. which breaks hearts of fangirls everywhere around the world. hahaha
slutty. the word is slutty.
ahahahah! its impossible to stop watching once you start, i dont blame you! i hope everyone else appreciated it.
hmm. ya i guess tts true. but like, arashi doesnt have tt like… sluttiness about them tt might just be due to the akame factor in kat-tun… though perhaps this is just due to me finding the whole idea of matsujun being slutty really really gross. yeahh actually the fact tt they debuted quite late is a good point. i didnt think abt that. though also its not like they were working together a lot beforehand right, weren’t they just random backup dancers for one of their senpais?
okay you say tt and ive just watched stand up! in which, im serious, you can actually see yamapi’s ribcage. though he must have been quite young in it. still. its REALLY SCARY. its also got oguri shun and nino from arashi. its okay la. good for exam time.
i actually havent watched anything with nishikido ryo in it yet. whats good?
his genius is undisputable, but seriously, man. its all a bit mad! and its so sad if you like, work for years and years and never really make it.
hahaha well think about it. we’re okay with chicks and older guys. im just quite amused abt it. though ya! seriously, i was quite shocked tt she was like 40! i mean, 30 wld be a lot more acceptable. haha well, fangirls can take it. there are always more hot guys out there.
slutty is such a good word for kame, dont you think. hahaha. and i mean it in the BEST way possible!
hmm no actually it was pretty surprising they debuted so late because they were so popular. like they started out as a backdancing unit but eventually they became so popular the following year they held concerts already. and that was a pretty big thing for groups who hadn’t debuted yet. and they keep working and doing stuff and dramas and things, and they were still holding concerts all the way up to 2005 (twice in a year, two different tours) even though they still hadn’t debuted or released a CD.
so even though they were pretty unhappy about seeing 3 groups formed after them debut before them, they were like… oh well… we still get to do concerts and stuff so it’s not too bad. but they were seriously thinking of giving up just before debut time i think. around the nobuta period because of the seishun amigo thing and i think kame got a lot of shit for that from kat-tun fans.
it was pretty bad for awhile, esp a few months after they finally debuted, jin had to go run off to LA. so its been a rollercoaster ride for them, i think. somehow i wonder whether johnny deliberately delayed their debut just to hype up the popularity. their debut concert was in tokyo dome!!! NEWS _just_ performed there after debuting for like 5 years!
i know what you mean about the slutty. hahaha
It takes a special kind of person to stop coming home drunk after a party. It takes a special kind of person to ignore the flashing lights, the booming music, and the leering eyes. A sea of white shirts wherever you go, squeezing through bodies to get to the toilet. Resisting glass after glass and bottle after bottle of whisky. You think maybe you’d be better off with a beer, or two, or none. A Coke, maybe. Then you think about how there is still work to do tomorrow, Equity and Public Law waiting for you, their siren songs turning to unpleasant wails in your head. Still, it’s a road that must be taken. And still you smell of smoke. It takes a special kind of person to forget about all this, to let go, and just be happy. As if there is nothing on tomorrow, as if nothing is the way it was yesterday.
We got lost on the way home. It was raining and I couldn’t see anything and I knocked down a cone outside Zouk and the security guard screamed at me. It was mildly unpleasant but somehow it was funny, when everything was a haze. I probably shouldn’t have been driving.
To the special person tonight who abandoned tomorrow and lived for today, here is your very happy 21st birthday. I know you will remember it forever and ever, even if you can’t really remember anything tomorrow. We are always here to remind you. Hur hur. :)
So the sky turns from black to purple to orange, and still the clock ticks on. When it turns blue we will wake up and life will start again.
haha im amused at how you tagged this entry ‘michelle’.
anyway, “life will start again”? hmm, maybe not.
i meant like real life. not Life. hahahah
i got selective memory. only can remember the parts where i was dignified and graceful. hahah. THANKS ANYWAYS! :D
Continuing my new and exciting series of Things You Never Needed To Know About Law, here is the following judgment from the former Justice of Appeal Karthigesu.
Everybody, all together now: WTF?
ETA: Okay, everybody needs to compare that with this from Lord Justice Chadwick:
i havent left my house since wednesday and therefore have finished the entire season of nobuta wo produce while doing islamic history notes. currently on gokusen 2. anyway, have realised the guy whose in both dramas whose name i cannot spell but starts with k (kame somethingsomething) is from kat-tun but isnt the one youre obsessive over. whyyy. he’s so pretttyyy. and really, wtf at the law notes. the consequences of failing to crack it… form a committee of enquiry and get them to do it for you….
take care dear, be happy!
HAHA no i love kame. i love them both! to be honest, (and i’m going to sound like a fangirl here) jin – who is hayato in gokusen – is better looking, but kame is much prettier. and acts better. he doesn’t look like that now anymore though, he’s gained weight and filled up and … looks very hot.
here are pictures for evidence:
i didn’t like nobuta that much though everyone went crazy over it. to be honest i think akira was really good in it though.
OH MY GOODNESS HE’S HAYATO!!!! okay now i understaaand. they look really good next to each other! like, it makes the term pinupboys make sense. though no way is jin better looking. kame is like… hotness. though i think the filling upness loses a bit of the slightly wayward waifishness he had. anyway, pictures just dont do it for me. i need to see him from all angles!! haha! have you seen this: http://wiki.d-addicts.com/1_Pound_no_Fukuin ? i would think that he gained weight from that. havent watched it… seems a bit odd. like kimi wa petto which i watched the beginning and ending of and got VERY weirded out by matsumotojun kissing koyuki. i think the acting for nobuta was really good, and the fact that it didnt have a perfect ending. though to be very honest i did continue watching it for the two guys. and also because i will watch almost anything to not study. miss you, and being insane. be well, dear!
yes he is :) hahahaa yes i have the whole subbed version of one pound gospel (and i can tell you where to download it if you want). subbers are really fast and i watched every episode the week after it aired in japan – so that means people only took less than a week to subtitle it. they’re amazing… and very free. not that i’m complaining, really, but woah.
yeah he did gain weight from it – he spent alot of interviews saying how because of the prep for the role that he gained a lot of muscle, though he’s the naturally skinny type so a month after that he’s back to normal if he doesn’t work out (it stopped showing in march and his arms are not as bulgy as before already). it was quite good even though the story was a bit weird, cos the character is so funny. OKAY. people are probably creeped out by how much i know right now. i follow these two boys obsessively.
and you should probably see kame dance if you want to see him from all angles. hur hur.
to be honest i stopped watching kimi wa petto after about 7 episodes because it was just too weird. i didn’t want to know the ending even though i sort of knew the ending already, if you get what i mean. it’s probably just that i didn’t want to see it. it was so strange. i miss you too! you’re the only one who understands my obsession!
its on mysoju! JOY! JOY! okay i might watch it tonight since no ones in my flat which makes me sad. though, i think kame in nobuta > kame in gokusen since he actually smiles in nobuta a lot. gokusen has this requirement for emo tough guys or smth.
ahhh do you understand enough japanese to follow the interviews?! i want to understand all the crazy stuff on youtube! theres one where apparently akanishi jin talks about how he saw someone in shibuya who looks kame but with his eyebrows at 15degrees more angled or something. it was funny anyway! no i totally get the obsession. we are sad, sad people. but its okay. we understand each other!
ya seriously i read your comment and i went on youtube. 7 episodes is quite a lot! i freaked by the 2nd, but i wanted to know how it ended so i watched the last 2. it was really strange because at that time in politics we were doing the philosophy of why slavery is immoral, i.e. because no one would willingly give up all of his/her rights to someone else. but like, so therefore is being a pet immoral?
WE ARE SAD PEOPLE! but i love you anyway! haha omg youre going to japan right, are you going for their concert? MUST TAKE PICTURES!
i love that show… seriously. kame smiles an insane amount in one pound gospel it’s crazy!
gokusen 3 is going to air in japan this month, or next. obviously no one cares enough about it because there is zero hype about it. gokusen was first headlined by matsumoto jun and oguri shun, then akame after that, so they got crazy ratings (like 30%!) but now i don’t even know who the actors are and probably will not care. that is sad because the ratings will probably just go down the drain and everyone will be very sad. the plot does tend to get very repetitive after like the 5th episode… i’m surprised it lasted two seasons but to be honest i ended up just watching it for the guys only. haha. i am so shallow.
randomly, they showed gokusen 2 on tv twice! on channel 8! and during nobuta, kame was only 40kg! oh and there is going to be a hana kimi special! they are filming it now! too many exclamation marks!
well he did give up his rights in exchange for food and lodging so … if immorality of slavery is premised on lack of consent you can’t really say it’s immoral if he did it voluntarily right? then again, a right is a right is a right and cannot be exchanged. the debate goes on. hur. i am obviously really doing too much constitutional law now (: do you want anything from japan?
you should watch cartoon kat-tun! it made me love them all. they are CRAZY and stupid and hilarious. and one of them cracks stupid jokes and puns and they all roll their eyes and kick him. but he is adorable.
see! junno 1
junno 2
junno 3
you always see the blonde dude at the back coming to get ready to kick him. it’s super funny.
everybody reading this exchange is probably thinking we are crazy.
i know! soooooo cute! though the nun chick honestly did annoy me SO MUCH at points.
i think gokusen 2 was better than 1, much more realistic. or well, as realistic as you get. but yeah. gokusen 3 will probably just be overkill. i just fastforwarded all the parts where she wasgiving “inspirational” speeches. haha. i kept thinking how hard it must have been for the guys to try and maintain an interested/ awed expression, with the exception of kame, who was allowed to look bored all the time.
40kg?! WHAT! WHAT?! that is UNREASONABLE! yaaaa omg i am soooo looking forward to the hana kimi special! the hana yori dango one is supposed to be out this year as well! exciting!!
it depends, how you define slavery in some ways because if you define it as being wrong because it is irrational for someone to give up his rights, therefore no one would do so, therefore can you say that anyone who agrees to slavery is therefore irrational and the contract itself is invalid? ok nvm. lets just NOT do work here. hahaha.
ooh! hmmm. how much are cds? if theyre not tt ex help me get either arashi or kat tun? if not then a postcard would be nice! yayyyy you’re amazing! -beeeghug-
i watched bits on youtube, like the one where kame says he holds hands with everyone including guys and everyone else goes crazy!
its okay, they should be inspired and go and watch EVERYTHING that has akame or oguri shun. haha. man, how do i deal with the realisation tt i am a grade a otaku? (is there a feminine form of otaku? otakette?)
okay maybe i should stick with fangirl. i can deal with fangirl. =)
i think gokusen 2 was already quite bad. luckily they’re good looking and she’s pretty and there are some funny parts – but the fighting was so weird. did you notice she only fought them one-on-one, EVER? so unrealistic!!
yes we are not going to talk about work. well – i’ve been called that alot lately so i guess it’s true. the funniest part is that i have now set my computer screensaver to start every 15 minutes, but my folder just consists of 486459656 pictures of japanese boys in HIGH QUALITY so sometimes when they flash across the screen all you see are their crotches or faces or some weird body part in great detail. which would probably scare me if i were not me and sitting behind me instead. now whenever i go away for too long i have to remember to put the laptop cover down or half the world will be potentially exposed to my perversion. oops. they’re all wearing clothes though. but still. i suppose it would be a bit traumatising.
i have no idea how much they are but cdjapan sells kat-tun cds online for about $50. the singles are about $15? so without shipping i’d imagine they’d be cheaper.
you like arashi too! randomly did you know that one of them is the dude in letters from iwo jima? the BAKER?
okay this shows how much TIME I WASTE but gokusen 2 ep 9 is like kame at his HOTTEST, EVER. kame + striped white shirt and skinny pants = yummy. seriously. i am SO rewatching that episode. ya! the fighting is SO UNREALISTIC! its like. yes, hit the teen boys while in a large group but line up carefully so the chick can knock you out. haha shes really damn funny when she does her whole, ohhh i know you boys love me thing, and then the guys are like – WTH?!
you never know, leave it up and you might make a friend!! hee hee. i’m glad they’re all wearing clothes, risse. very glad. hahahaha. though apparently, oguri shun has modelled for a yaoi magazine with his best friend, and im not sure how disturbed i should feel. haha. one of my guy friends watched hana kimi and liked it, though felt very uncomfortable watching it, which i find quite funny.
a cd is 50?! are you kidding me?! okay i will think about it when i go home and tell you. haha. yes! i like arashi! there’s a music vid they do with like little wooden dolls which is sooo cute. i havent watched letters from iwo jima! it seems too depressing, im not in the mood. anyway, do you like ikuta toma too? his smile is how cute la okay. i would totally watch honey and clover except that the girl annoyed me SO MUCH during the first episode.
anyway, much love.
hahaa i watched gokusen 2 so long ago that i can’t really remember, but it should be the one where he kneels down and cries right? kame from that period is too angular for me – like you can tell both of them (well all of them really) haven’t really grown out of their teenage faces and it’s all a bit awkward. watch the lips pv! kame is wearing eyeliner and it is all very hot (:
the interactions between the head teacher and her are really funny though. the sound effects make it even funnier (:
oguri shun does a lot of weird things people don’t expect him to, like play the lead in shakespeare plays on stage. anyway apparently he is just like that – he and ikuta toma are very good friends and all they pretend to do is just be stupid and act gay and call each other wife and husband and do dumb things like take pleasure in watching everybody else feel horrified. hana kimi was a very good way to explore homosexuality in a way that alot of homophobes wouldn’t find that offensive (i think). yes i liked him in the role and i’m very sad that he still hasn’t debuted even though he’s been in the business since he was 14 and that was all together too much information. haven’t watched honey and clover, but maybe i’ll start on it after exams. i put watching another one on hold too – ganbatte ikkimasshoi – which stars nishikido ryo from NEWS (yet another johnny’s entertainment group) ha this johnny’s is seriously taking over my entire life. i watched until ep 3 the held it off cos the girl was so offensive. she acts in initial d with jay chou! ergh. hooray for annoying girls.
yeah a cd online is 50 but i’m sure it’s cheaper there. although japanese groups don’t really release cds very often (but they come up with a single like every 3 months) so their albums have like 40 songs and are usually released nearing their concert tour dates as like some promotional gimmick. the dude in charge of them really knows how to make money okay.
yeahh its that one. haha well, i watched it a couple of weeks ago so its all a bit new to me. i dont know, though. they look a bit more raw when they were younger. haha yes i watched it! very very hot. though the clothes make him look like he’s doing a musical called “pimp, the japanese edition”. i watched a couple of episodes of cartoon kat-tun and OMG i am SO in love! they are hilarious! watched the ones with leah dizon (where akanishi jin is like, SILENT AND STARING for most part of it), erika toda and horikita maki. hilarious! junno makes the STUPIDEST comments!
i can imagine oguri shun would make a good hamlet, or smth. haha i swear, he sounds like he was prob in an all boys school for a while. i dont know, when i watched hana kimi i was like, OH MY GOODNESS, this reminds me in some weird way of being in rg and being completely insane. though, i think a lot of homophobes wouldnt actually watch a show like hana kimi…
have you watched kurosagi? its really quite good. yamapi and horikita maki. yamapi is good but really, okay, so incapable of smiling that its quite strange. i think if there werent any annoying girls we would be watching EVEN MORE SHOWS. so maybe its a good thing.
the guy in charge of them has like, the BEST JOB EVER wth. seriously.
love,
nj
haha yes. there are like 54 episodes now so you can take your time watching them (: they are really super funny. yah jin is fascinated by eurasians (hence leah dizon) and he only starts smiling when he tries to ‘propose’ to her with lyrics from a justin timberlake song and everyone is just like O_O!!!! and his english is actually not bad… haha. junno’s jokes are really retarded and he always gets kicked but he deserves to be loved anyway. haha
yes oguri shun sounds repressed really but i think he just has a very weird sense of humour. it’s a secondary school thing!! all the strange things happened in sec sch seriously. like faith shaking her butt to get into your locked classroom while somebody filmed her at the back. that scene is forever burned into my mind…
yeah i watched kurosagi – the movie just came out! haha. yamapi doesn’t laugh at all unless he’s with friends i think. he’s super stiff on camera even on talk shows where everyone is rolling in laughter but he just has this pained smile on his face like he can’t decide whether to smile or laugh or neither or both. it’s so painful to watch. hahahah
i like romances though! so i’d watch them even with girls, so long as they aren’t annoying. haiii.
oh man, seriously. its like, im thinking its a really good thing that i dont live in japan because i would spend ALL my money and time being obsessive. have you seen this clip of matsumoto jun and jin sniping at each other? TOTALLY HILARIOUS. esp the first part where jun’s all up in jin’s face about how jin “looks like a playboy”. i know! the whole justin timberlake thing was sooo 0_0?! but points for effort, man. he must REALLY like leah dizon. i think nakamaru is sooo lovable. apparently his method of dealing with akame fighting is to lock them in a room.
i think its just a single gender school thing. ya! hahahaha that was hilarious. faith was screaming SO LOUD. and we were all always in school ALL THE TIME. also all the random competitions, and the insanity, and the drama, and the way we’re all exceedingly affectionate. haha.
AHHH. darn darn darn. MORE THINGS TO WATCH! i know! its really really strange, right. hes so odd! like, odder than usual. that chick in one pound gospel is in crows zero is it? im like, damn, its going to stop showing by the time i get back to sg! im going to have to either buy it or download.
yes. we’re all suckers for romance. which is why i think nobuta isnt so attractive, theres no romance. was trying to explain to my friend why i was so obsessed with japanese dramas, at which point she told me i sound like i really need to get married. =( so sad right. haha i made a list of jap boys on my blog just so i remember to watch all this stuff after exams.
anyway, much love!
yes i think so too and it would probably be worse if i actually understood japanese totally i think i would just die glued to the tv for every single nonsense that comes out. and yes i saw that clip too, i downloaded it from somewhere and they’re just so retarded sniping at each other saying stupid things. which is what makes them hilarious and lovable i suppose. anyway jin can speak english because he disappeared to LA for half a year so i guess leah dizon was really surprised… though when ueda tried to propose to her it just totally fell flat because he was supposed to do it in english but he asked for her number in jap anyway. and there was a strategically placed rock for him to trip over and land at her feet. what the helllll haha seriously. they make fun of nakamaru’s nose all the time it’s just so… omg hahahah you know it’s wrong but yet it’s so true so you can’t stop laughing anyway, and then he gives this -_- face like “oh well…”
the akame dynamic is amazing to watch.
sadly we’re probably in school all the time now too. crazy things happen when we’re in school and we’re totally stressed out studying and everything seems funny – sara’s face when she realised she was caught on video changing! CHANGING! so random and so funny (:
im not sure if kurosagi is coming out in singapore but i think it should be (frankly i haven’t been to town in ages recently so i wouldn’t know… hahaha) but i’ll go check it out after exams FREEDOM IS NEAR! hur hur
there were tentative beginnings of a romance which was nice i guess – was half scared it was going to turn into a kame-yamapi-maki love triangle and that would be so weird because nobuta is TOTALLY unattractive (sorry) even though she looks super cute in hana kimi. maybe its the personality too…
it’s okay. my boyfriend thinks i’m mad. ahhh jap boys. so pretty and sparkly :D
nj 12:34 am on October 31, 2009 Permalink
be glad you dont have to read like 50 pages of this:
The Caliph’s transcendence figures as an energy yielding a force which acts, by the violent means of nature, upon human nature in order to produce culture, but yet remains beyond this culture as a reserve of untrammels nature ever producing and maintaining culture: The Caliph is the untamable tamer and the savage domesticator, continuously exercising the corrective primal violence with which chaos was subdued in primeval times…
much love,
r 1:28 am on October 31, 2009 Permalink
this judge is awesome. i love reading this kind of stuff, it makes my case reading so much more enjoyable haha.
nj 4:42 pm on October 31, 2009 Permalink
haha i read it while doing my own reading above and was like… crap… should have done law… at least you are USEFUL TO SOCIETY. -hug-